jason / just say ok

[SOPHIE OPHELIA DIGORGIO]

the world slows down but my heart beats fast right now

sophie was tired. she needed an escape. she had henry for the weekend and he was driving her crazy. he was going through his terrible twos, and all he wanted to do was destroy everything. letting out a long sigh sophie stood in the middle of the living room in her small apartment. she looked down at him, he was sitting there silently in front of a shattered vase. henry... sophie put her hands on her hips and the child smiled. but mama swasn me he spoke in baby talk. sophie let out a soft chuckle, she couldnt be mad at him. he was too cute and she loved him too much. picking him up she gave him a squeeze making him squeel. she knew that he had to go home, to his 'real' family. but she didnt want him to leave. it was sophie's dream that one day she would have custody of henry.

it was sophie's dream that one day jason would come back. her jason and henry, one big happy family. but reality was alot harsher then that. jason had left her, straight cold left her while giving birth to henry. he had sworn to always be there and when she needed him, he was gone. sophie had been through alot while he left. she started to raise henry but cried alot more then he did, and multiple times thought about just ending it all. but, she centered herself and decided to do what was best for the both of them, and give henry up for adoption. luckily her aunt, who couldnt have children, offered to take him, until she got her life settled. after giving him up, sophie got a job, and started going to school on federal aid. she was going to put her life back together wether jason was in it or not. but not one single day passed where he didnt cross her mind.

she truly missed jason, but it was probably better he wasnt around. snapping back into her thoughts she went into henry's small bedroom and grabbed his buzz light-year bag. she heard him let out a soft groan. for a toddler, he knew exactly what was going on and he didnt want to leave. walking over to him she bent down on the arch of her heels baby, you know mommy loves you with all of her heart. she stared at the toddlers face as he mentioned something about wanting his daddy. she felt her heart stop as she reached out and pulled him close to her. i know, mommy does too she hugged him for a good five minutes before standing up, with him still in her arms. she had the backpack on her shoulder as she grabbed her keys and headed out. walking down the steps to the parking lot she unlocked her small car and put henry in the car seat, with his bag next to him. sliding into her seat, she slid the keys in and started the depressing drive to her aunts mansion.

after she had dropped henry off, instead of going back home and pouting all day, she decided to take a pitstop at the lake. it was calming there, something about the scenery had a calming effect to it. pulling into the dirt parking lot, she parked and got out of the car. leaving her purse and belongings inside she simply slid her keys into the pocket of her shorts and headed towards the lake. she began to walk the path next to it but stopped. finding a few rocks that overlooked it, she headed over and managed to climb onto them. getting herself comfortable she pulled her knees to her chest and stared out at the lake. she really wished things were different sometimes, but real life was harsh, and she just had to deal with it.

JASON / OUTFIT / I HAD A KILLER MUSE HOPE YOU DONT MIND LOL

[jason avery chandler]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, width: 390px; padding: 15px; border: #transparent solid 15px;][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=border,0,true][atrb=width,400,true][atrb=width,400][rs=12] i'm all right with just a kiss goodnight the boy thought it was better for sophie and their unborn child if he wasn't around in the picture. he thought they were better off without him in their lives and stands corrected. thinking that he wouldn't become the best father-type figure for their child, so he promised her that he'll be around but not after the baby was born. he would feel like a failure and disappoint sophie. the young boy grew up without a father role in his life. it was just him, his mom, and his two half-brothers. his biological father walked out after finding the news that his mom was pregnant. jason learned from the best. so, he didn't know how to deal with the situation other than running away from it and not wanting nothing to do with it. he did promise he would be there whenever she needed him and would try his best to be there for his child, but with touring and recording labels, he didn't had the time to make time in his busy schedule. jason wanted to go to a place to escape from everything and everyone. with trying to finish his solo recording label and dealing with family drama, the boy just wanted to run away. so, the lake sounded like the perfect place to go and clear his mind from everything. he grab his car keys from top of the dresser and walked out of his two-bedroom house, hopping inside his car. starting the engine and driving out of the driveway, making his way toward crystal lake. once he arrived to the lake, he notice someone already there. the boy looking around the area and let out a small sigh, slowly walking toward the girl to get a better look of her. she look familiar but wanted to make sure if it was the right person he thought it was. once he arrived to where the girl was sitting, a little smile appear on his face as he knew who it was. hey sophie. mind if i sit here? the boy didn't hesitate and wait for her response. instead, he sat down beside her anyways and wanting to see her reaction. it's been a while since they last seen each other. they barely started talking couple days ago over instant messaging. removed his sunglasses and folded them, placing it to the right side of him. he then look over at sophie and asked, what brings you here to the lake? while waiting for her little response, the boy couldn't help but wonder about his child. he knew he felt wrong for running away after the birth of their child, but that doesn't mean he stop thinking about it. he was scared to take responsibilities, so figure to take the easy way out and look how it turned out. how's, um, henry? when are you going to let me see him? even though, he knows it maybe little too late, but he wants to try and be there in his child's life. he deeply regret for walking away, but he's willing to change, so he could be around his son more. he has the right whether or not sophie wants him to or not. OUTFIT: CLICK // TAGGED: sophie // NOTES: lol that's fine. sorry for this horrible post.

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[SOPHIE OPHELIA DIGORGIO]

the world slows down but my heart beats fast right now

yes sophie missed her family, she missed jason and she missed henry. she wanted them both back. she wanted to have a complete, full, small happy little family. she hated the way things were, disfunctional. she had grown up in a family like that. her younger sister hated her and her parents divorced and were going through very bad lawsuits with each other because of her. sophie looked down at her legs and ran her hands through her hair rubbing her temples. she was starting to give herself a headache from all the stress. she let out a soft sigh and looked up at the lake. she suddenly felt as if she wasnt alone anymore. she heard feet walking silently towards where she was sitting. she let her legs slide out from her body and she relaxed her sitting. it could be anyone at this point.

but the voice, thats what hit her. without saying a word she snapped her head. it was jason. he was standing right in front of her. she opened her mouth to answer him but it was impossible, nothing came out. she closed it as he answered for her and sat down next to her. she looked at him to say something again but just stared at him. she let out a surprised, awkward chuckle holy crap. you really are back in crystal lake she ran her hand through her hair again and looked out at the lake, trying to let this sink in. she couldnt believe it. the one person who she needed the most, who ran when she was having his child, was back, asking about his child.

when he asked her why she was here she looked up and finally managed to find her voice. i just needed to get away, its been a rough...well, few months she said nodding and looking out at the lake again. when he started asking about henry she felt herself choking. she had never told him she gave the baby up for adoption. only that it was a boy, and his name was henry michael chandler. yes she gave him his fathers last name, and she didnt care wether jason was concerned about that or not. he was going to be in his sons life one way or another. she looked up and finally managed an answer. uhm, he's alright, getting big. looks and acts just like you jason. she nodded and let out a soft chuckle. she pulled out her phone and opened to the most recent picture she took of him today and showed him. she had to tell him she gave him up. she couldnt hide it. well id have to call and see when i can get him. i only usually get him on uh...weekends. she shrugged and lokoed at him. swallowing hard she just spit it out. jason, i gave henry up for adoption a few weeks after he was born.

JASON / OUTFIT / I HAD A KILLER MUSE HOPE YOU DONT MIND LOL

[jason avery chandler]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, width: 390px; padding: 15px; border: #transparent solid 15px;][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=border,0,true][atrb=width,400,true][atrb=width,400][rs=12] i'm all right with just a kiss goodnight while being away from sophie, made him wonder if he made the right choice leaving after the birth of their child. he felt it was best for them that he wasn't around. thinking that they were better off without him in their lives, but looking back now made him wonder if that was true. sure, maybe they were better off without him, but he wasn't. he needed them in his life because without them, he's nothing. that's the reason why he's back in crystal lake. he wants to be around sophie and henry's lives more and maybe it would help him change his life around. jason looked down at sophie, sitting down beside her with a raised eyebrow. of course i'm here. are you surprised to see me back? he asked. the boy couldn't help but wonder where she heard the news of him being back in town. then again, this town is known for spreading rumors and gossips around, so he wouldn't help it a surprise if she found out from someone else. that's one of the many things why he never liked crystal lake. while waiting for her response to his question, the boy looked over at the lake while pulling his knees up by his chest and wrapping both arms around it. he then look over at sophie when she said something. he didn't want to know why because of two reasons. he doesn't want to be noisy around her business and sure that she's going to come up with a lie, so figured not to ask. ohh. i'm sorry to hear that. the boy said sincerely. a small smile appeared on the boy's face after hearing how his son is doing. he could already picture how his son looks with black hair, brown eyes, and that goofy smile. he then notice sophie showing him a picture of henry and couldn't believe his eyes. after looking at the photo made him wonder if he made the right choice of leaving or not. while looking at the picture, he heard sophie mentioning something about henry. he looked up at her with a confused look. why does she have to call? then the truth came out. jason couldn't believe she gave their child up for adoption. at that moment, he wanted to yell at her and tell her how crazy she is for doing a stupid thing like that. luckily, he kept his cool. the boy took in a deep breathe and release it with a sigh. ohh. that's the only thing that came out from the boy's mouth. he's still in shocked about the surprising news. jason doesn't know what else to say to her right now. the boy open his mouth as he wanted to say something, but nothing seems to come out. so, he just sit there quietly and looking over at the lake. why did you do that? why did you gave him up for adoption? are you that crazy, sophie? OUTFIT: CLICK // TAGGED: sophie // NOTES: lol that's fine. sorry for this horrible post.

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[SOPHIE OPHELIA DIGORGIO]

the world slows down but my heart beats fast right now

she watched his every move. it was as if a ghost was standing in front of her. she hadnt seen nor spoken to jason since the day he left her. the day he told her it was probably better that he wasnt in her and henry's life. the unborn henry that is. sophie swallowed hard. she closed her eyes and opened them, somewhat hoping this was all a dream. letting out a slow sigh she looked out at the lake. she had wanted this for some time now, so why was it that she was so anxious, nervous and scared. why was it that she wanted to leave, not be here at this moment. she wanted to escape, go get henry and start over. run away. get a clean slate, but sophie had to deal with her mistakes and giving up henry was her number one at the moment.

when he spoke about being back at the lake. well i had heard around that you were back but i wasnt sure she paused you know how people are, always stirring up problems between others she chuckled and pulled her knees back to her chest. it was her safety net. it made her feel as if the word was smaller, and not sinking in around her. as he spoke after she finally admited to giving up henry her heart sank. oh. thats all she got was an oh. she looked down in her lap and felt herself getting upset. this is not what she needed. not right now, not really ever. but she knew she had to face it one way or another. letting out another sigh she looked up to speak but before she could jason was going off. stupid. it was true. sophie was stupid. hearing the words come out of his mouth hurt. she knew that giving henry up was a bad idea, and it hurt to do it, but she couldnt raise him alone. and it was jason's fault she had to give him up. but she decided that was best not said.

she shook her head and looked at him, a little shocked. i...i had to. i couldnt raise him properly. not after what happened....she paused between us. she looked down and ran her hands over her bangs, swiping them out of her face. i couldnt look at him anymore. i resented him. he looked just like you and i hated him for that. she shook her head. i regret it with all my heart. i miss him. but i get to see him whenever i want. she looked up. you could see him to...i mean...if you want she shrugged. she knew jason was probably pissed, but she had to somehow show him she wanted him back in her life. because she did. she wanted him back, she was in love with him, but she knew that even if he was just back to see henry, it was better then nothing.

JASON / OUTFIT / ITS OK, MY MUSE IS SLOW TONIGHT :3

[jason avery chandler]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, width: 390px; padding: 15px; border: #transparent solid 15px;][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=border,0,true][atrb=width,400,true][atrb=width,400][rs=12] i'm all right with just a kiss goodnight jason couldn't help but laugh. he knew she heard it from someone else. well, there goes the surprise. instead of saying something, the boy just answer by nodding his head. he didn't really wanna talk about why he's back or talk more about how these people are with spreading rumors around. that's not why he's here at the beach. he came down to relax and hope to clear his mind from many things that's bugging him, one of them is sophie. now, here she is sitting down beside him. deep down, he truly did missed her and didn't like the way they end things between them. he does regret leaving her with their unborn child, but felt it was the right thing to do at the time. now, he wish to go back in time and take it back because he truly did loved her. there's nothing he could do now except try to be there for their child whether or not she wants him here. jason looked over at the lake, thinking about how the hell this happened. he thought leaving would be better for her to raise him on her own, not to give him up for adoption. now, he regrets leaving her alone with their son. he then turn his attention back at sophie and open his mouth as he's about to say something, but close it afterwards. he couldn't find the right words to express how he feels right now. he's upset, angry, disappointed, mad, and the list goes on. just because what happened between us doesn't give you the right to give him up like that. the boy said, shaking his head. running his fingers through his black hair, still shocked to hear the news. and why didn't you talked to me about it? the reason why i left is because i thought you two were better off without me, not for you to give him up for adoption. the reason why he's back is to spend more time with his son, henry, but now doesn't have the chance to. that's good. he murmured, looking down at his shoes. gently chewing the inside of his cheek, thinking about what to say next without snapping at her. letting out a small sigh, finally calming down. of course, i want to see him. he's basically the whole reason why i'm back in town. he said, not making eye contact. the boy would do anything just to see his child. if it was to put his career on hold or to stop all of it, he would. while he was away, the boy could not help but think about how his child look. if he had the same eye color, same hair color, same nose? after looking at the picture and how sophie resent their child, made him figured that the child looked like him but the only way to be sure if he saw him in person. OUTFIT: CLICK // TAGGED: sophie // NOTES: slowly getting my muse back. btw, sorry for this fail post. tried my best to make jason look like a jerk. c:

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[SOPHIE OPHELIA DIGORGIO]

the world slows down but my heart beats fast right now

sophie swallowed hard. she wanted to get up, get back in her suv and drive. far away and never come back. she wanted to run away from everything. jason's words hit her like a bag filled with bricks. how could he say those things? how could he tell her that she was crazy for giving their son up for adoption, when he didnt want the kid to begin with. sophie shook her head and looked in her lap. she couldnt believe this. she was trying her hardest not to cry, not to scream at him, and worse not to tackle him down and kiss him. she waited a moment before looking up. her eyes locking on his frame. jason. dont you even sit there and tell me what is right and wrong with this situation. she shook her head, still staring at him.

when you left, everything just stopped. everything fell apart and i couldnt handle it. im sorry that i did what i thought was best, i gave him for adoption. instead of running away like a coward. she knew that it was rude to call him a coward, but she was getting aggitated. he was saying these things, and sophie didnt know how to respond other then anger. you really think i could have raised him by myself? i was only what, nineteen turning twenty? i had to drop out, start over because of him. i gave him up so he could have a better life she was about ready to stand up and leave. i gave him up, so he could have things i couldnt give him alone. so he could have two parents who loved him instead of one. sophie was starting to feel like she was attacking jason.

she looked away, feeling a stinging in her eyes and her cheeks were getting red. she waited a few minutes before letting out a loud sigh. she stood up and looked down at him, rubbing the dirt off f the back of her pants. well if this is how its going to be im just gonna go. ill call you when i have him next. she looked down at him, feeling angry, scared, upset and disappointed. had she thought things were going to turn out differently, yes. but, life always had a way of screwing sophie over.

JASON / OUTFIT / HAHA, ITS ALL GOOD. SOPHIE IS GETTING FRUSTRATED NOW :b

[jason avery chandler]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, width: 390px; padding: 15px; border: #transparent solid 15px;][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=border,0,true][atrb=width,400,true][atrb=width,400][rs=12] i'm all right with just a kiss goodnight jason listen to what sophie was telling him, shaking his head at the comments that fell out from her mouth. sure, he has no right to yell at her and say all those things to her, but the boy couldn't take it anymore. just because he didn't want the kid, doesn't mean that he still wanted to try and be there when he's ready to become a father. after running away from the child's life, the boy felt he was now ready to take the role but only to find out that she doesn't have the kid anymore. the trip coming over here was for nothing. maybe that's not the whole reason why he's back in town. maybe he's back to see sophie and see if she's willing to give their relationship another, become this little family that they weren't ready in the first place. jason did missed her and couldn't help thinking about her, but didn't want to admit it. he just couldn't, especially after finding out the heartbreaking news. so, he told her the half truth why he's back. why not? you know what you did was wrong. i cannot believe you're that selfish! i wouldn't be talking, soph. you giving him up makes much of a coward too. jason snapped back. he didn't want to sit here and argue with her about this little situation. every word that was coming out from sophie's mouth felt like a sharp pain, like someone stabbing him with a butcher knife to his heart. instead of feeling upset or hurt by those harsh comments, he tried his best to snap back. wow! so, what you're trying to say is that you regret having him because you had to give up almost everything? do you hear yourself? he cannot believe what she was telling him right now. instead of trying to find the words to argue back, the boy just sit there quiet. turning his body around and facing at the lake. i loved him too. he said softly, murmuring underneath his breath. jason did loved his son which is why he did what he had to do. he figured running away would be best for him and show how much he wanted him to have a better life without him. which is something sophie was trying to tell him, but with jason being stubborn about the decision she made. looking over at sophie who was getting up and beginning to walk away, hearing her final words. he thought about what to say next, but couldn't find the right words. he was filled with anger and upset about the decision she made without talking to him about it. finally calming down after letting out a deep sigh, standing up and chasing after sohpie. wait. reaching for her hand, causing her to stop. i'm sorry for reacting like that. i had no right to say all those things to you. OUTFIT: CLICK // TAGGED: sophie // NOTES: haha d'aww!

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[SOPHIE OPHELIA DIGORGIO]

the world slows down but my heart beats fast right now

listening to her words she shook her head. he was really starting to annoy her. im selfish? im selfish?! are you serious? instead of going after my career i STAYED and tried to raise him. thats more then you can say. she snapped at him, crossing her arms over her chest. she couldnt believe this. this is not the way that she wanted things to go. this is not the way that things were supposed to happen. her and jason were supposed to get back together and they were supposed to be one big happy family again, but the way that he was talking to her made her not even want to know him anymore. she shook her head and looked out over the lake.

how dare you call me a coward! she snapped her head back at him i tried at least i made somewhat of an effort! she couldnt believe this. the more he spoke and the more she listened to him to more angry she got. after he accused her of regretting it she snapped back at him, her eyes once caring and worried turned to anger. dont you ever say that i regret having him. you KNOW that i would do anything for him, i love him. i tried. i gave up everything for him, and i wouldnt take anything back for the world. she couldnt handle it. she needed to leave before she wound up finally saying something she regrets.

standing up she turned to leave, walking quickly and keeping her head down. she felt tears starting to form in her face when she felt the warmth of his hand reaching for hers. stopping she turned around and rolled her eyes looking at him. she snapped her hand out of his and crossed her arms staring at him, with hatred, fear, love and all sorts of emotions in her heart. she wanted to run, hug him, cry and everything at once. letting out a sigh she loosened her arms letting them fall to her side. she looked at him and shrugged. its cool, im used to it by now i guess. she paused im sorry for calling you a coward she looked up at him and shrugged again.

JASON / OUTFIT / AWHHHH SO CUTE <3

[jason avery chandler]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, width: 390px; padding: 15px; border: #transparent solid 15px;][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=border,0,true][atrb=width,400,true][atrb=width,400][rs=12] i'm all right with just a kiss goodnight jason let out a small laugh, rolling his eyes while running his fingers through his dark black hair. he cannot sit here any longer and here anymore of this. coming to the beach was something not worth coming home and talk to his friends about it. oh yeah, and you did a fantastic job raising him. jason said, snapping right back. turning his head over to look at sophie, noticing the anger in her brown eyes. he could tell that she was already upset, hate seeing her like this. it's his fault though. it's his fault for not keeping his mouth shut and kept all those harsh comment quiet, holding it inside. sadly, he cannot take things back and now has to deal with it. i'm not! that's not what i was saying, i was just repeating what i thought you were implying when you mention giving up on everything because of him. he said, feeling his cheeks turning to crimson red due to all this anger. sorry for misunderstanding what you were trying to say. once he reach for sophie's hand, joe didn't hold her hand long enough because she quickly pulled it away couple seconds after. he look down, sliding both of his hands inside the pocket of his shorts and gently biting the lower lip, looking over at the girl standing in front of him. she doesn't know how much he wants to kiss her right now. since seeing her in person, the boy kept stopping himself from doing something that would probably end tragically. jason just stood there quietly, not saying a word that would pretend him from snapping. instead, he just look at her and slightly shake his head about her little apology. it's fine. i deserved being called a coward. the boy said, shrugging. he didn't care what she called him because it's the truth. he is a coward and the boy knows it, but kept denying it until now. for once, he finally accepted it and okay with it. you're right about everything you said about me. he added, looking down at the ground. coming back to town of crystal lake and already getting into an little argument with sophie was something he didn't plan on doing. OUTFIT: CLICK // TAGGED: sophie // NOTES: sorry for this fail post.

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[SOPHIE OPHELIA DIGORGIO]

the world slows down but my heart beats fast right now

she knew that this wasnt how things were supposed to play out, but she couldnt help like feeling if this is how he was going to react, maybe he shouldnt be around henry. if he couldnt man up and handle the situation, maybe he couldnt man up and take care of their son. all these thoughts ran through her head and she closed her eyes tight, pushing her thumb and index finger on the bridge of her nose. she let out a frustrated groan followed by a low sigh. as they stood there, in the middle of grass patch in front of the lake, sophie felt as if time had stopped. she was here, with the man whom she loved, and he was trying to be apart of her life agin. part of her wanted to pinch herself to see if she was dreaming or not.

after she apologized for calling him such harsh things she stood there quietly for a moment, staring at him. not much had changed. he was still the same handsome, charming, tall and dark guy he had been when he left her. sophie felt her heart do flips. he still gave her the butterflies and she hated that. finally looking down she searched the ground as if she was going to find an answerr, but his voice broke her silence and her head snapped up to look at him. as he spoke she listened. he agreed with her, and thought he deserved to be called a coward. sophie felt a sudden rush of guilt sweep over her body. she reached forward, taking a step closer to him, and put her hand on his shoulder. no jason. you dont deserve to be called any of those things and i am sorry. she looked down and then back up.

she was fighting back the urge to just pull him close and kiss him. but she knew she couldnt. she shook her head. im sorry, you did what you thought was best and i cant sit here and say that it was wrong, thats my own opinion. we each made our fair mistakes in this situation. what matters is, is how we are going to fix it. she looked at him and let a small smile creep on her face. henry is going to be so excited to finally see you jason. she chuckled and remained with her hand on his shoulder, looking at him.

JASON / OUTFIT / EH THIS WASNT MY BEST, SORRRRY.